22nd of May 2011
Did It On ‘Em
I haven’t been on here in forever. School and Sigma Gamma Rho have taken up my life, but that’s a good thing. 5 classes while on line- and I got all A’s. 4.0 GPA this semester and 3.89 cumulative GPA. I’m so proud of myself! Told yall I can’t settle for average…I tryna be great!
Can’t wait to see what I accomplish next!
24th of April 2011
I can’t remember the last time I got to spend a holiday with my family. I’ve missed Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, everyone’s birthdays, etc for I don’t know how many years…*sigh* this is depressing. Its crazy how the older you get the more you start to value your family. I remember when I couldn’t wait to move out and get as far away as possible. Now I actually cherish the little time I do get to spend with them. The last time I saw my mom it was the first time I had seen her in over 6 months and I cried when she left. It was after my probate show and it was the first time I’d heard her say to me that she was so proud of me and everything I was doing and that as long as I was happy then she was happy for me. That hit me…hard and I couldn’t hold back the tears. I’ve lived away from home for 6 years now and that was the first time I ever cried when she left. I wish I could be closer to them but at the same time I think moving to Chicago was the best decision I have made in a long time. I have accomplished more here in 10 months than I had in the past 4 years of my life.
I guess everything good comes with a price. The question then is how much are we willing to pay?
23rd of April 2011
Day Five: Six Things I Wish I’d Never Done
1. Gone to cosmetology school.
2. Gotten involved in that life and stayed in it for so long.
3. Took so long to forgive myself/family.
4. Compromised myself for you.
5. Taken so long to get serious about my education.
6. Lost my faith.
22nd of April 2011
I will not settle. I will not settle. I will not settle. I will not settle. I will not settle.
Day Four: Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot
1.Money (or lack thereof)
2. My family- I really miss them and I’m starting to hate being so far away from them…
3. My future…I just want to be in a good place educationally, emotionally, spiritually…
4. God and his plan for me…I really wish I knew what it was!
5. What I’m going to do after I get my degree…
6. If I should just say goodbye
7. What I can do to make a difference…
Prelude to a Kiss
Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong anywhere
And its gonna take so long for me to get somewhere
Sometimes i feel so heavy hearted
And I can’t explain cause I’m so gaurded
But that’s a lonely road to travel
And a heavy load to bear
And it’s a long, long way to heaven
But I gotta get there
Can you send me an angel?
Can you send me an angel?
To guide me
21st of April 2011
I have no motivation anymore. I don’t know what happened. I feel like I gave up and I don’t even remember doing it. Something is just missing in my life right now and I don’t know what it is or how to change it. Everything in my life has slowly been falling into place…so why do I still feel so lost?
Day Three: Eight Ways to Win My Heart
1. Be considerate
2. Be consistent
3. Challenge me
4. Make me laugh
5. Surprise me
6. Be honest
7. Show me
8. Dream big like me
20th of April 2011
Day Two: Nine Things About Myself
1. I’ve been through a lot in my life that no one would ever guess. Don’t let the smile fool you.
2. Whenever I get mad and I can’t do anything about (like scream, cuss, or hit someone)…I cry. I hate it, but I can’t help it.
3. I have made epic mistakes in my life but I don’t regret a single one because they shaped the person I am today.
4. I am a hopeless romantic at heart and despite all the times reality has smacked me in the face I still believe in fairy tales.
5. I refuse to settle for average. I want to make a difference.
6. I am a huge Harry Potter, True Blood, and Twilight fan. #teamedward
7. My biggest fear is being alone.
8. It is a small group of girls I would do anything for because honestly I can’t believe they’ve stuck around and put up with me for so long lol
9. SGRHO #nuffsaid
i heart katy perry! #dontjudgeme